Good things come to those who DON'T wait

Life is not easy. Relationships are not easy. Parenthood is not easy. Success is not easy. Growing up, I used to hear this saying all the time...."good things come to those who wait". I believed it for the longest time. I always knew one day I would be happy and that all my dreams would come true. One day, I woke up... Good things come, they do. But not to those who wait. Waiting doesn't get you anywhere in this life we live in. Waiting is only a sure way to disappointment and heartbreak. 

In our society, there is no room for waiting. There's no time to wait. Before you know it, you are eaten alive. I'm not as successful as I would like to be, not as accomplished as I wish I was, the one thing I know is, I am the only master of my life. I cannot sit around and wait. No one will make me happy if I'm not happy within myself. No one will hand me a $50 000 check out of nowhere and no one will be a better mom to my child if I am not because I am her mother.

At the same time, there seems to always be road blocks at each turn. My advice to myself is "expect them, don't let them surprise you."

So, yes life is hard. I wish people would stop sugar coating it. However, if we knew what we were capable of, if we didn't wait comfortably, we would be better off. 

This is not meant to discourage but a loving kick in the butt. It is a new year and as I write this,  I am helping myself. Every time I write, it is a form of therapy and self discovery. I hope my posts speak to you and touch you somehow. 

Stay strong and don't forget to laugh. (I try even when I don't feel like it)

Caged bird

She's so in love with X, so in love with her daughter. Her love life is fully fulfilled yet she feels uneasy, her mind ever so restless. What is she waiting for? What is that feeling? What is that urge? Right now, she's got love and it couldn't be any more perfect but she feels like a caged bird. She needs to fly but where to?what does the future hold? How can she express all that passion in a rewarding way?
All these thoughts went through her head as she watched her cat through the patio door. Intrigued by the way he was looking at her, so sure, so serene, She then internally and quietly asked him, " do you know all the answers"?

Destiny

Walking in the thick snow, up the hill she climbs her hand in his. He looks back at her and smiles. She smiles back and tightens her grip on his hand. She feels and sudden jolt of happiness and she starts to run up the hill. He laugh runs after her and catches her before she falls in the snow. He helps her back up and looks in her eyes and he says "I'm so addicted to you"... In that moment she feels so thankful because she feels as if they have been given a second chance. A chance to fall in love again, and it feels amazing.

Next on the chapter in her life is figuring out what is this feeling she has, almost like a poll towards something great, something she doesn't know and something she doesn't understand quite yet.